Sinless or Sin Less?
I love reading. I always have done, from a very young age. I remember fondly reading Enid Blyton’s Famous Five books, and reading my first Jack Higgins novel in my early teens. I don’t know if reading was an escape but I just loved to read. I guess it doesn’t matter really. My love of reading has continued to this day, although my choice of books has certainly changed. Gone are the thrillers, the fantasy books like Game of Thrones. The majority of my reading now is Christian based. I am particularly interested in Christian Apologetics, and have read many books on the subject. Lee Strobel is a favourite and I would recommend any of his books. I have also just finished a book by Jonathan Wells on the subject of Evolution and how what is taught in schools is wrong.
There are many books by prominent Christians where God has moved massively in their lives. They all seem to live absolutely fantastic lives. Jesus saved them, God spoke to them, and their lives became absolutely amazing. I have many books in my bookcase just like these and I absolutely love them. They inspire me, the fire me and they have been a source of great comfort to me. Can I identify with them? Not much. Jesus set me free from a life dogged by Heroin addiction and my life has been transformed completely. God spoke to me regarding his plans for my life, and here I am writing a blog on a Christian Clothing Website after God spoke to Myself and my beautiful wife. This is where my identification ends when I read all theses Christian books. You see I am still human. I still sin. I still struggle, and I still get things wrong on a monumental scale. I hope this article can be of some encouragement to others who struggle and keep quiet
I enjoy hearing about peoples struggles. If I am honest I am slightly sceptical of people who have an encounter with Jesus and who’s lives are amazing after. I identify with the guy who says he has been set free from something, whose life has been transformed, but who still messes up. The guy who stands in front of you and openly says I get things wrong. I love that guy. Even Paul the Apostle got it wrong. One of my favourite passages of the bible is where he says that he still cant stop himself from doing the things that he knows he shouldn’t be doing. Now I can identify with that.
Before I went to Teen Challenge I was not a very nice person. My language was appalling and I was unable to show much affection towards my Wife and Children. Rather than tell the children that I was going to Teen Challenge to get help for my drug addiction, we made a decision to tell them I was going to get help for my swearing and smoking. So my children associate swearing with a very unhappy period in their lives. And, if I am completely honest, on a number of occasions over the last few months I have sworn. This immediately upsets the children and put them on edge. Does it make me a bad person? No, however it makes me want to grow in my faith more so that I imitate Jesus even more. Do I still battle smoking? Yes I do. This too makes me want to grow in my faith. Just because I gave my life to Christ doesn’t mean I am going to be sinless. It means I will sin less.
Life is tough. Life throws up some tough situations. And on many occasions our responses or actions may not be the right ones. But we can have hope that we are not alone. That many others go through the same struggles. Do I believe that all of these famous Christian Authors’ lives are perfect? No, however it doesn’t stop me reading their books because their content and message are very good. They know what they are talking about. They still inspire me and I will continue to read them. Now, if I ever get round to writing a book it will include my topsy turvy life as a Christian, and how I don’t beat myself up about my mistakes. I want to encourage all those who also get things wrong. Paul got things wrong. Its not the end of the world. Jesus loves us and calls us to follow him. He never said it would be easy. And anyway, easy’s boring